Katies journel log 6.

This blog will show you how much Katie ment to him and shows that he really couldent live without her<3 The days after that went well and they became closer and more in love. But February 5th came and thats where things got interesting. Both him and katie suffered from depression and had thoughts of suicide and both cut. They both had a bad day and Katie was beyond upset. She became suicidal and said things he would not like to share with us but he does want us to know he thought it would have been impossible to convince her out of it. He stayed up will 3am trying to convince her not to do it. She fell asleep on the phone nd he woke up at 6am with two hours of sleep. He waited and texted her trying to see if she was still alive in fear somthing happend. She replyed upset and mad cuz he woke her up but it was understandable with how she felt. Then she had to go to costco first thing in the morning with her mom. Mind you he had been ready to rush down there to talk to her since 6am. He got there around 11ish paniced and grabed her as soon as he saw her. Hair a mess and eyes swollen from crying he thought she still looked beuitiful. She sat in his arms at the bottom of the steps at her apartments crying wanting to die. He kept beging her not to telling her the world needs her he needs her. That anybody that said different is wrong and that she was amazing and perfect just the way she is. She went silent and he began to cry. Soon he was bawling his eyes out. She looked up at him and this is another thing he could never forget. Katies blank dead expression she had for about 20 mibutes looked up and saw him crying and instantly turned into a look of concern. She simply asked “whats wrong my teddy bear?” he said nothing babe just worry about yourself please. She said no whats wrong. He didnt awnser he just said please dont leave my baby girl I love you to much to let you go, She said ok I’ll stay for you just please tell me why your crying. Almost out of breathe he said “Because I thought this was the last time I get to hold my baby girl ever again, I thought Id never see her again”. She replyed with the exaclt words of “Awwwh my teddy bear, i could never leave you. Ill stay here forever and ever for 100 years i promise” (thoughout theyre relationship this promise got extended alot<3) He cryed and said i love you my baby girl and she said i love you too my teddy bear. Once they both stoped crying(he was a little teary still but hes very emotional) She said i need to re-do my nails, If im gunnu stay here i need to be pretty. He replyed with a laugh and said “Now thats my baby girl. Only us would go from suicidal thoughts to laughing and talking about nails<3” theyre day continued on as one of the best days together they had. They watched a movie and made out..of course(: and had a blast for a day. And They fell beyond more in love that day knowing how much they ment to eachother<3